100 Things: An Introduction

Well I suppose this may be a good way to introduce myself to the blogging community. I took it from my friend/ex-coworker's blog, who quite possibly has the most interesting blog I have ever had the priviledge of reading.

She wasn't a fan of doing this, I'm not either, but I can't sleep and I may as well get it over with. I'll see if there is a way for me to do some kind of blog-cut so it isn't super long. Read at your own risk!

100 Things About Me

1. I love the smell of car exahust in the morning.


2. I secretly want to train my cat Joshua to walk on a lease. I dont care how crazy it will make me look.


3. I'm a big hypocondriac.


4. I'm a germophobe.


5. I'm not as gay as everyone thinks I am.


6. Sometimes I wonder if the fear of penetration alone is my root.


7. I'm saddened by the fact that working for Epitaph Records has made me hate a label that I loved since childhood.


8. I love the smell of shoe stores. Oddly enough the cheaper the store, the better the smell (i.e. Payless Shoes).


9. I love how I've mentioned how things smell good twice already when I actually have the worst sense of smell ever...


10. I still have no idea where to put commas in a sentance.


11. I have had trichotillomania since I was about eight years old. It was after a beach trip and I had sand in my hair. I'm really ashamed of it, but you can't see the damage at all.


12. I can't orgasm fully. I get close and then freak out and can't let go.


13. ...I think this is because the first time I did orgasm I female ejaculated and it made a terrible mess. After that I only woud masterbate in the shower just in case. It hasn't happened since. Mental block like whoa.


14. I love how I worked at Condom World for about two years, yet I have never had experience with them. Irony at its best.


15. I used to be a model.


16. I won a sailboat race with my dad when I was eleven


17. I was in a small plane crash with my dad when I was twelve.


18. If I paint my nails they have to be black... and chipped. I can't deal with the black being solid.


19. I've considered taking up smoking or doing coke to lose weight. Not seriously though. Passing thoughts.


20. I bitch about my ex-girlfriend a lot, we'll call her The Thespian Lesbian (TTL for short), but we broke up long enough ago that I shouldn't anymore. I can't help it, but it makes me feel kind of pathetic when I do it.


21. I work as a production assistant/runner for Live Nation New England. I love it. I'm sad to leave.


22. I have three tattoos, but I consider them more like six becuase the left arm was done in a lot of stages.


23. I feel like no one likes me, or that I'm that friend people call when they run out of real friends to call or hang out with.


24. I feel like no one is going to read this.


25. I haven't smoked pot since May, not because of health reasons or anything like that, but becuase I was told I would have to take a pee test if I wanted to ever work a show (as a stagehand, blech) at The Garden. It hasn't happened, but now I'm worried I'll have to take one when I go to LA, so I'm waiting until I get a secure job before I start smoking again.


26. I deflect emotions.


27. I'm too easy to read if I'm upset. Not a fan of this quality.


28. I screen my phone calls, always.


29. I always have an away message up. I suppose I'm a big fan of screening my entire social life.


30. I have social anxiety and can't go out by myself sometimes.


31. I just took my lip ring out a few days ago. It feels weird. I hope it doesn't limit me with the ladies. haha.


32. I'm great in bed. There. I said it.


33. I have no sex drive, so as of the past month or so I've been trying to ignite that.


34. I have the most disgusting roomate and becuase of this I can't go into the kitchen or I'll puke. It's totally unfair.


35. I have a cat named Joshua who I have had almost a year (I got him in mid-Novemeber.


36. I cant ever tell if my sense of abandonment with friends is real, or if it's because of the bipolar thing.


37. I've had two boyfriends and one girlfriend. I feel guilty about the two boys becuase I treated then like shit. I thought I treated them like shit because of the gay thing, but in reality I was just scared if their junk.


38. My first boyfriend was also my first kiss I was 15 and he was 19 (ew?). We'll call him Sleezer Geezer (SG). I wouldn't trust him further than I could throw him. He forced me to go to my one (and ONLY) formal. This is the last time I wore a dress. At Homecoming I was "the girl with the really hot boyfriend", so that was satisfying. So sleezy though. I broke up with him after the dance because I really had a bad feeling about going home with him after. Good choice... he's the reason my family got caller ID.


39. My second boyfriend, who I would consider my first *real* boyfriend because I actually liked him, I dated when I was 16. He was 15. So many problems with him having age insecurities. Annoying. Anyway, really hot, a skater, and a drummer. We'll call him Dreamy Skater Boy (DSB). I was the biggest bitch to him because I was afraid if I got too close I would end up having to sleep with him. So I treated him like shit until he broke up with me, which was SO hard to get him to do. HOWEVER, after we broke up I found out he cheated on me IN THE BEGINNING of the relationship aaaaand with a friend of mine. Everyone knew but me. It was a special time.


40. I didn't date for 5 years after DSC.


41. I hate nipple rings.


42. My girl number finally outweighs my boy number.


43. I graduated from Berklee College of Music.


44. I'm 5'11".


45. I have an irrational fear of mirrors. I have a hand mirror in my room and I make sure to cover it up with something at night.


46. I'm scared of ghosts.


47. I collect my working passes. I used to collect my dads when I was a kid, butnow I finally have my own collection.


48. I also used to collect Salt & Pepper shakers as a kid.


49. My dad has made me a guitar pick collection since I was a kid. After a show he just picks up ones that are left on the stage when they are cleaning up and put them in this box. I have like.... 200+ now.


50. My dad brought me home Gavin Rosdales towel once. Gross? I washed it really well and used it for track practice to clean my discuses when it was muddy out.


51. I have more basses than I know what to do with.


52. I've had the creeping feeling of wanting to date someone again, but I know I can't until I move and am physically happy with myself again.


53. I blame TTL for making me gain so much weight. She is the laziest person I know.


54. I have a personal trainer. She text messages me. The friend zone has been tapped into and it's weird.


55. I hate text messaging unless it is absoluetly needed.


56. No matter how many times I try, I can never spell the word Necessary correctly unless I spell check it. I avoid using it at all costs when I can get away with it (notice above statement where it has been bolded for an example).


57. I love sushi, but only eat the kind with vegitables or cooked shrimp. I don't do raw.


58. I always feel pressured to drink.


59. I like taking my friends out to dinner.


60. I hate traveling. I can't sit still for very long when en route.


61. I have a fear of toilets backing up thanks to Condom World.


62. I currently have no health insurance. I try to leave my house as little as possible becuase of this to avoid getting sick or tripping and breaking something.


63. I've been told that I'm so gay that I make other gay people feel gayer when they are around me. The reason explained to me is that I don't go out of my way to be gay. Way lost. If anyone can explain THAT to me you will get a cookie.


64. I love artichokes and will gladly make them for anyone who doesnt know how to eat them the way they are meant to be eaten (it is an artform).


65. I never learned how to shave with a real razor ( I use an electric razor -or- Veet). I feel like my mom didn't do her job in that department. If I learn now I'm gonna slice my legs up. An old dog can't learn new tricks.


66. Tampons = me crying.


67. I like to be dominated in bed, yet I'm too self-conscious about my body to fully enjoy it.


68. I really want to try Ecstacy. Just once.


69. My favorite drink, thanks to Nikki, is a Greatful Dead. Tasty.


70. I got a coat hanger stuck BEHIND my eye when I was three. I freaked out and yanked on it to get it out. I'm amazed that I have an eye and that I can see.


71. Every joint in my body is hyper extended. I'm learning to not to it with my knees after my PT pointed it out. My legs and ass are sore as a result.


72. Making out is quite possibly the most fun thing ever.


73. During the time I dated TTL I wasn't allowed to use my tongue when we kissed. She only likes to lip kiss. BORING.


74. I've only done one drunken make out with a total stranger, but now we are friends and hang out. Just my luck.


75. I think femme girls with a slight rock edge are super hot... and skater boys. Butch girls are a no-no.


76. Looking across the room and seeing my degree makes me feel weird and old.


77. When I'm hungry I never know when to eat. My body also sucks at letting me know when I have to pee. It likes to tell me at the last second when my bladder is about to explode.


78. I am flirting impared.


79. I have a fucked up knee that has needed to be fixed for 7 years.


80. I really, really like having money. I switched my major in college from performance to business once I learned that musicians make shit money even if they "make it".


81. I hate old people.


82. I HATE SNOW.


83. I normally have a nice tan. I've been almost see-through for the past 4 years because Boston has no sun.


84. My mom is totally crazy and my dad is a total asshole, but I love them both.


85. My hair has been almost every color in the rainbow.


86. I have a lot of music on my iTunes that I never listen to. I'm constantly shuffling.


87. I have a great sense of style, but you wouldn't know it by how I dress because I can't wear what I want to.


88. I have a cell phone problem. It's the only thing I'll impulsively buy when I want a new one, which is often.


89. I'm really scared of religious people.


90. I really admire my best friend, but she constantly compares herself to me and I hate it. She's really talented, funny, and smart and I hate that she can't see that.


91. I really want a dog and I love Corgis, but I don't know if I can get another one. I don't want to feel like I'm replacing Tucker.


92. The only time I'd *ever* wear a strap-on is if Kelly Clarkson wanted me to do her with one. No if's, and's, or but's about that one.


93. My laptop screen is bigger than my TV screen.


94. Speaking of my TV, it has the phrase "Cunt Box" drawn into the dust on the screen, courtesy of above mentioned best friend when she visited last.


95. I shave my forearms, usually.


96. I hate people who drink Smart Water. I want to kick them in the face for wasting money on WATER.


97. My glasses are ALWAYS broken.


98. If my SUNglasses ever broke I think I'd have a nervous breakdown.


99. I have an autographed headshot of Toby Keith. It was given to me by his label rep when I worked his show. I didn't want it, but I didn't want to be rude. I hate him. I have it up on my wall to freak people out.


100. I own Debbie Does Dallas on VHS.

I refuse to proof read that or spell check it. I'm sorry it just isn't going to happen. It took way to long to do... Oh man....